And we know that all things work together
for good to them that love God, to them
who are the called according to His purpose.
Romans 8:28
After
some days in the hospital this last week, I found this verse from
Romans had more meaning for me than in a great while. I'm not quick
to throw this verse around in a casual way as some might. For many
it's become a too-casual catch all for every event of life. This
verse does apply to our every circumstance, but it must be a sincere
application.
Going
to an emergency room because of a bad reaction to a medication seemed
innocent enough....in and out...right? No way in this case. An
over zealous physician on the spot decided I had had a heart attack
which couldn't have been further from correct. However, in an
emergency situation, when those two magic words (heart attack) are
are mentioned, things go into full swing. After the events of the
next three days, I got to learn first hand what all does and needs to
happen when there is a suspicion of a heart event. I've now seen all
of the blood tests, EKG's, medications, sonograms and yes, a heart
catheterization. I found myself on a medical merry-go-round I could
not get off of. I did my best to explain over and over what I had
come to the hospital for, but my information fell on deaf ears.
Don't
get me wrong, I was surrounded by loving, caring and dedicated
people. The nursing staff and two other doctors who all came my way
were blessings beyond explanation. I loved the housekeeping ladies
who liked to linger in my room for chats. My nurses in the wee hours
of the morning were sweet and efficient seeing to my every need. So
what's the problem?...ME! I don't think I had ever been in a
situation quite like this where things were moving so quickly, making
little sense to me although I was perfectly conscious and aware of my
surroundings. In this situation, I had NO control over my
circumstances.
I'm
thinking of friends of mine who at times have found themselves
feeling like I did at that moment with nothing making sense in their
own worlds that were spinning around them. I think of a friend
suddenly widowed...a husband in seeming good health gone to heaven.
I think of couples dealing with older children who seem bent in
keeping parents in a constant state of fear and turmoil. I've had
several friends return home from a doctor's offices after hearing
news no person wants to hear...stage IV. Recently in our area,
hundreds of people were affected in the worst of ways because of the
fires that ravaged through the mountains and into a busy tourist
town. Many lost everything...even loved ones...in just a matter of
hours. That's an event those folks are still picking their way
through.
Our
verse speaks of “ALL things.” Just the term “all things”
really doesn't give us much in the way of specifics because there are
some things we feel need explained to some degree. “All things”
is pretty broad...there are surely exceptions. As I was wide awake
in my hospital bed after the heart cath, for the life of me, no
explanations for what had just happened dawned on me in anyway.
There are just some things we accept because we bottom line trust
Jesus that He knows what He's doing or allowing..
Feeling
a little on the down side and yes, still asking some questions, one
of my sweet VERY young nurses (aren't they all) came into the room.
We had done quite a bit of talking, but this time she seemed to have
a determination to really speak something into my life she felt I
needed in that moment. She sweetly said, “Mrs. Lanoue, I am a
believer. I believe you are wise and love Jesus. You've probably
taught ladies for years with God-given wisdom and I have no right to
say anything spiritual in nature to you.” She then went on to
sweetly explain to me how in her young life she had learned there are
things that happen over which she had no understanding or control.
She went on to tell me that in many of those times, she learned no
matter the circumstances, she had to just trust that God always knows
what He's doing and has purpose in every event of our lives.
As
I was listening to her, I wondered how often I have said those same
things to any number of women going through tough times. Now I had a
sweet, young nurse teaching me all over again those very same things
that I needed to hear, that I needed to hear from the Lord through
her. In her entire medical career, she'll probably not remember that
moment, but I will and more important, God will.
Sooooo,
I don't have to know all the details of every circumstance that
occurs in my life even when I think I know what's best at the moment.
When I love my Lord, and am called to serve Him, ALL things are
going to work according to His purpose and I can rest in that through
Eternity.
Dear
Father, forgive me for forgetting You are near, dear and working on
my behalf no matter my circumstances. Forgive my humanity and may my
circumstances serve as life lessons for me in future days. Thank You
for Your healing touch in my life and for loving me through it ALL.
In Jesus precious name.....Amen