Come
unto me, all ye that labour
and
are heavy laden, and I will
give
you rest.
Matthew
11:28
I
told myself two years ago when we moved to Tennessee that I wouldn't
fall into the trap...the trap of being too busy. I was reminded of
this as I folded the church bulletins for a recent Sunday service. I
prepared four different insert sheets that had to be folded and
stuffed into the poor weakling bulletins that already looked too
weary to bear the load. Believe it or not, I'm not bemoaning the
task as it's for the Lord and no one else.
I
thought when we arrived in Tennessee, our new home, that I would
spend my hours soaking up the mountains through meditation, prayer
and relaxed reading. I determined to breathe deeply and even break
out in a song like Maria in The Sound of Music if I wanted to. So
what happened? I began substituting on the piano for the services
and that's not much really. I subbed for the pastor in typing some
Wednesday evening prayer sheets which was nothing at all to do. My
love of course is teaching...the door opened for me to teach a ladies
class. The pastor agreed to a ladies Bible study...we talked...now
I do a ladies Bible Study twice a year. It just seems that a ball
started rolling down a mountain and I couldn't do anything to stop
it. There went my opportunity to traipse on a hillside singing, “The
Hills Are Alive with the Sound of Music....”
We
had come from the busy life of a city, and the busy activities in a
pretty large church. In some form or another, I was doing here many
of the same things I was doing there. I meant well even though the
things I'm doing come almost as second nature to me...kind of a
comfort zone thing.
Perhaps
I'm preaching to the choir in all of this because many of us run on
overload most of the time. I don't have the added responsibility of
having children in the home. Busy moms have car pools, soccer
practices, youth activities, and on and on it goes. Even then, I
fear parents have their children running on overload just like they
are. Children like adults all need unwind time.
As
I face a new year, I want things to be different and only I can do
that. My husband might kindly suggest that I need to unload some
things, but for the first time, we are together 24/7 and for the
first time in our 43 years of marriage, he's seeing how all of this
evolves with me.
I
don't believe in New Year resolutions. I think they are a waste of
thinking time and I only end up kidding myself. What I have chosen
to do is set some goals that are reasonable. When we come up with
some worthy resolutions and per chance mess up on one or two, we feel
defeated and feel we can't pick up the resolution and continue on.
The defeat is usually too great. When a goal is set, if I miss one
somewhere along the line, I feel like I can pick up where I failed
and go on. It's amazing the different two words make...resolution or
goal...but there's a big difference for me. Someone once said to me,
“Aim at nothin' and you'll hit it.” No matter our age, I believe
we should always be stretching, learning and coming to know God
better than ever before. There are always areas where we can improve
just in the everyday things of life.
I'll
share some things I'm praying about and contemplating.
- I want more time in God's Word and not just for studying to teach a Sunday school lesson or ladies Bible study. I need more meditation time...more soaking up the Word with Holy Spirit guidance.
- My prayer life needs lots of improving. I want to be more faithful in keeping a prayer list. All of us at one time or another assure people we will pray for them and it's so easy to forget. I just want more time of praise and worship. I want the Lord to know how much I love and appreciate Him.
- I believe I should continue writing my blog even though it takes a great deal of work. I so appreciate friends who read it, but I have been shocked at folks from other countries who are regular readers. I've come to feel a real responsibility to encourage friends from Saudi Arabia, China, Russia, Columbia, England, Canada, Pakistan and others. In some of those countries, a reader could probably be in trouble if caught reading any Christian literature. In this process, I pray for their protection.
- Without a doubt, I will continue teaching. It's God's gift to me and in His power, I want to be faithful in doing it.
- I want to put into my regular schedule more alone time. I've been used to having it until Brian retired. We have no problem being with each other day in and day out, but I personally feel the need to have more alone time.
- I need to work more exercise into my life. We live in a perfect place for walking, whether in our neighborhood or taking off for the mountains. I need the exercise not just for my body but it's so good for the mind...airing out the cobwebs.
I
could list more things that have to do with family and friends and
those things I don't necessarily want to plan because then they
become “have to's” instead of “want to's.”
None
of the things I've listed are difficult. They will require
discipline on my part that I really don't have built into me, but the
Lord will enable me to do what I need to do.
What
is your new year looking like? Are we stuck in neutral, expecting
each new year to be a carbon copy of the last? Are we praying about
something we need to drop from our schedules that have just become a
comfortable place to park. Perhaps God has something new for us this
year either in our own personal growth, improvement or service for
Him? There have been times I've been afraid to pray about what I
should add or subtract from my life because God might answer that
prayer with something I don't care to do for Him. If I first give my
days to Him (they are His anyway), He knows how to direct my
activities and abilities to the fullest.
May
God grant each of us a wonderful new year of life and love. May we
clear our slates of any ill will, hurt feelings or negative events
we've allowed to take over our thinking. Let's begin 2013 with a
fresh breath of spiritual air, anticipating all the wonderful things
God wants to do with us. What a wonderful opportunity for adventure
in the life God has in store for each of us.
Dear
Father, we don't know what the new year will bring our way. As is
with life, there will be positives and negatives we will experience
but in it all, You will shepherd us, leading us into a deeper walk
with You. Thank you Father, for keeping Your hand on my life. I
love You. Amen.